There is a board I post on that where there are certain days in your pregnancy you get excited about and can kinda brag about. Some are 12 weeks, 20 weeks(half way), 24 weeks(called v-day viability day!), and 35/35 (35weeks/35 days to go). Today I was supposed to be able to post that but obviously I am not.
I am so happy to say that Elijah is doing so well though. He took yet again another full bottle at 200 this morning, I believe thats 3 now! He does get really tired after he finishes a full bottle so usually they let him rest the next feeding to build up some energy. He is still having alarms that they call brady's which means his heart rate drops. This is very common in preemies and especially since they took him off of the caffeine a few days ago. The good news is that everytime he has an alarm he brings himself right back up, usually before the nurse even gets over by him!
I didn't get to see him yesterday because I woke up with a sore throat :-( today I feel a little better but I am not sure if I am going to visit becasue I don't want to risk anything. Shaun visited yesterday and now feels kinda sick today which of course makes me super nervous so please pray Elijah doesn't get sick! They've been monitoring his temps and they have been pretty good. He is also gaining weight like a champ! He was 5lb5.8oz when he was born and today he is 5lbs11.4oz!
He got moved to the intermediate room in the NICU which is a huge step! Hopefully he continues to do well and they will put him on an "ad lib" feeding schedule this week. He will be able to tell the nurses when he is hungry and they will go off of his cues, as long as he continues to gain weight with this schedule that is a good sign.
Although he may not be home for Christmas I know he will be home soon. He is doing so well and us being able to be with him at the hospital on Christmas eve and day will be good enough this year! I know next year I will have a healthy little 1 year old at home (with an almost 5 year old!...tear)!
Sunday, December 16, 2012
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
Didn't get to see my baby today :-(
Today was super hard, I have been thinking I was going to get sick for a few days because Skyler is and today I woke up feeling pretty crappy. I decided to stay home to rest and to not risk getting Elijah sick. It has been really hard not seeing him today but Shaun went up and held him for about an hour and a half which helped make me feel better.
Elijah is still off of the oxygen and has been doing so well that they took him off of the pulse ox as well, so now he is just on the heart rate monitor and the apnea monitor. They also started to bottle feed today, this morning he took 5 ccs and this afternoon he took 20 cc's. He gets 45 through his feeding tube so they give him whatever he doesn't take through there. He continues to gain weight which is great and has been maintaining his temp. The dr. told me on the phone today that he had 2 alarms last night but the nurse called me and told me that they were not anything to worry about and that he brought himself back up right away. They will be taking him off of the caffeine on Sunday which really scared me but hopefully he does fine! We are taking an infant CPR class next week which will also go over the monitor if he has to go home on it. The doctor told me that it is possible if he does really well with feedings that he could be home by Christmas but to not get our hopes up. I am mentally preparing myself for him to not be home but it will still be extremley hard if he isn't.
We finished decorating the Christmas tree tonight which was supposed to be fun, but I was also supposed to be big and pregnant decorating getting ready for Christmas. I was pulling out the ornaments and grabbed Skylers "baby's first Christmas" ornament and kinda lost it. It just wasn't supposed to be like this and now that he is here and may not be home for Christmas is so sad. Like I always say though I try to remember that he could've came earlier or have been much sicker so we are so blessed that he is doing so well and it is just a matter of time before he comes home. Please continue to pray that Elijah's breathing continues to do well, he doesn't have alarms, he catches onto eating, and he stays infection free!!!
Elijah is still off of the oxygen and has been doing so well that they took him off of the pulse ox as well, so now he is just on the heart rate monitor and the apnea monitor. They also started to bottle feed today, this morning he took 5 ccs and this afternoon he took 20 cc's. He gets 45 through his feeding tube so they give him whatever he doesn't take through there. He continues to gain weight which is great and has been maintaining his temp. The dr. told me on the phone today that he had 2 alarms last night but the nurse called me and told me that they were not anything to worry about and that he brought himself back up right away. They will be taking him off of the caffeine on Sunday which really scared me but hopefully he does fine! We are taking an infant CPR class next week which will also go over the monitor if he has to go home on it. The doctor told me that it is possible if he does really well with feedings that he could be home by Christmas but to not get our hopes up. I am mentally preparing myself for him to not be home but it will still be extremley hard if he isn't.
We finished decorating the Christmas tree tonight which was supposed to be fun, but I was also supposed to be big and pregnant decorating getting ready for Christmas. I was pulling out the ornaments and grabbed Skylers "baby's first Christmas" ornament and kinda lost it. It just wasn't supposed to be like this and now that he is here and may not be home for Christmas is so sad. Like I always say though I try to remember that he could've came earlier or have been much sicker so we are so blessed that he is doing so well and it is just a matter of time before he comes home. Please continue to pray that Elijah's breathing continues to do well, he doesn't have alarms, he catches onto eating, and he stays infection free!!!
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
No more oxygen and nursing!
Today was a really great day! He has had his nasal cannula off since last night and is tolerating it well. Yesterday we tried to nurse with help from the lactation consultant, he was so sleepy and didn't do much but daddy got to hold him for the first time yesterday! Today was a completley different story! I went in for his 11am feeding and he was so awake and alert, he nursed like a champ! I was so proud of him, he still got his breastmilk through the feeding tube when we were done just to make sure he is getting all of his calories. In the next day or so they are going to start bottle feeding him when I am not there to get him eating without the tube. That is pretty much the next step for him to come home!!! The nurse that had him today said that she thinks we could be looking at the end of next week. That is so incredibly exciting, if he was home for Christmas that would be the best Christmas present I could ever ask for!
He is still on the caffeine but hasn't had any alarms, if he needs to go home on the caffeine he will also go home on a monitor (which I wouldn't mind :-) ) that monitors his heartrate, breathing, and pulse ox. Please pray that he will catch onto feeding soon so that he can come home!
It's still wierd being home. I went into the hospital at 24weeks, I was just starting to get a cute belly and now I am home and don't have a baby here. I am so happy and know we are so blessed that he is doing so well and will be home soon so I just try to remember that instead of being down about him not being home at this very moment.
He is still on the caffeine but hasn't had any alarms, if he needs to go home on the caffeine he will also go home on a monitor (which I wouldn't mind :-) ) that monitors his heartrate, breathing, and pulse ox. Please pray that he will catch onto feeding soon so that he can come home!
It's still wierd being home. I went into the hospital at 24weeks, I was just starting to get a cute belly and now I am home and don't have a baby here. I am so happy and know we are so blessed that he is doing so well and will be home soon so I just try to remember that instead of being down about him not being home at this very moment.
Saturday, December 8, 2012
Happy 1 week birthday!!!
I can't believe our little man in a week old today! He has come so far in this one week!
He is on a nasal cannula, he is on room air for the fio2 and 3l of oxygen (they use what's called a blender I am not quite sure how it works), but his sats are staying good at this! His feeding is up to 27cc's (could be 33cc's by the time we get there tonight). He has been having some alarms that are called apnea's and brady's which is super scary for us but very common for babies his age. He has a few in the past few days while I was holding him which was the scariest thing in the world, but the nurses are amazing and stay calm and just get him to breath again! So since he had these they started him on caffiene which just helps his brain remember to breath! Since he got the bolus yesterday around 2pm he has only had 2 alarms and the last one was last night at 930! His billirubin is up so there is a good chance he will have to back on the lights but thats ok. He is doing so great! If his feedings stay good he will be able to get his IV out and will be able to go an open crib :-)
Today was so incredible, he was so awake and alert and just stares at us, his smile is the cutest. He loves to have his hands by his face and loves to pull out his oxygen. He had it out for 3 minutes today and didn't drop at all! When we left this afternoon he was sucking on his nuk which is great for potential nursing! We will visit him again soon so I can't wait to see my love bug!
Shaun goes back to work on Tuesday which will be hard, it's been so amazing having him home. He is incredible and has helped me so much as I recover from my c-section. I am having a harder time because my muscles are so atrophied that I get tired walking short distances, walking stairs kills me. Me and the boys are so lucky we have such a great man to take care of us!
Please continue to pray for our little man, pray that he stays infection free and keeps making improvements!
He is on a nasal cannula, he is on room air for the fio2 and 3l of oxygen (they use what's called a blender I am not quite sure how it works), but his sats are staying good at this! His feeding is up to 27cc's (could be 33cc's by the time we get there tonight). He has been having some alarms that are called apnea's and brady's which is super scary for us but very common for babies his age. He has a few in the past few days while I was holding him which was the scariest thing in the world, but the nurses are amazing and stay calm and just get him to breath again! So since he had these they started him on caffiene which just helps his brain remember to breath! Since he got the bolus yesterday around 2pm he has only had 2 alarms and the last one was last night at 930! His billirubin is up so there is a good chance he will have to back on the lights but thats ok. He is doing so great! If his feedings stay good he will be able to get his IV out and will be able to go an open crib :-)
Today was so incredible, he was so awake and alert and just stares at us, his smile is the cutest. He loves to have his hands by his face and loves to pull out his oxygen. He had it out for 3 minutes today and didn't drop at all! When we left this afternoon he was sucking on his nuk which is great for potential nursing! We will visit him again soon so I can't wait to see my love bug!
Shaun goes back to work on Tuesday which will be hard, it's been so amazing having him home. He is incredible and has helped me so much as I recover from my c-section. I am having a harder time because my muscles are so atrophied that I get tired walking short distances, walking stairs kills me. Me and the boys are so lucky we have such a great man to take care of us!
Please continue to pray for our little man, pray that he stays infection free and keeps making improvements!
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
Making progress!
Today was incredible! We went to visit Elijah this morning like we have been, Shaun stopped in the room to drop off some milk while I went to wash my hands. When Shaun came out he had a huge smile on his face...the vent was gone!!!! I of course started crying, I am so very happy! Speaking of crying, we got to hear him cry for the first time since he was first born, what an amazing sound! He is now on the cpap and doing well, his blood gasses have been stable and vitals have been good as well!
So with that great news we were so excited and ready to celebrate with our fancy lunch the hospital was providing us. While we were getting ready to sit down to our steak dinner (it was amazing actually!) we got a phone call! Shaun answered and it was Elijah's nurse calling to tell us they were going to start some breast milk!!!!
Today has been so great, we do have to remember thought that there is always a chance that he won't handle the things right away and we would have to take a few steps back. But he is doing great with feedings so far!!!
Tomorrow is going to be the hardest day of my life, I get discharged. I have been wanting to go home for so long and now it's finally happening, not exactly how I pictured though. I am going to be a mess but I know he is in great hands with the nurses, doctors, and God. We will be up here as many hours during that day as we can!
So with that great news we were so excited and ready to celebrate with our fancy lunch the hospital was providing us. While we were getting ready to sit down to our steak dinner (it was amazing actually!) we got a phone call! Shaun answered and it was Elijah's nurse calling to tell us they were going to start some breast milk!!!!
Today has been so great, we do have to remember thought that there is always a chance that he won't handle the things right away and we would have to take a few steps back. But he is doing great with feedings so far!!!
Tomorrow is going to be the hardest day of my life, I get discharged. I have been wanting to go home for so long and now it's finally happening, not exactly how I pictured though. I am going to be a mess but I know he is in great hands with the nurses, doctors, and God. We will be up here as many hours during that day as we can!
Monday, December 3, 2012
Happy Birthday Elijah!!!
He is finally here!!! Sorry this is pretty long!
December 1st was an odd feeling day for me. All day I felt a little wierd, Jenny had visited me and I had even told her I felt like I may bleed and that I just didn't feel right. Shaun never sleeps over Saturday nights because he works at 8 in the morning but I had planned to tell him that I thought he should sleep over that night when he called on his break.
So around 530pm Jenny left and I took a shower, then I went on tthe monitor. Elijah had 2 decels(his heart rate went down very briefly) which he has never done before. The nurse had my turn on my side and he was back to normal. I sat up and thought I felt what might be the start to a bleed, my nurse was still in the room so I decided to stand up. I looked at her and said I'm bleeding. So I went to the bathroom and sure enough I was starting to bleed again! I had her grab my cell phone and I called Shaun right away, I was actually very calm calling him but that didn't last! As soon as I hung up I started crying because I knew I was delivering that night and that these were the last minutes I would be pregnant with Elijah.
They got me back to bed and everything started happening very fast. Someone was putting an IV in me (they just took mine out an hour before!), lab came up to draw blood, someone was putting me on the monitor, and anesthesiology was in talking to me. I was shaking like crazy from nerves and I just couldn't stop. They got everything set and wheeled me off to the OR. I was still in my bed where they started to prep me until they moved me to the OR table which was much smaller than I imagined. They had me sit up on the side to start the spinal, I was so incredibly uncomfortable. I was still shaking, I had a million and ten cords being hooked up to every part of my body, I was so scared for Elijah and also nervous Shaun wasn't going to make it in time!
They layed me down on the bed once the spinal was started which went great because my legs got numb pretty fast. They tilted me backwards a bit and towards my left side so I felt like I couldn't breath and I was super dizzy! My blood pressure dropped a little so they fixed that but I still felt like I couldn't breath. I was one of those crazy people yelling that I couldn't breath and that I was going to die! The anesthesiologist kept telling me I was fine, my pox was fine, and that I wasn't going to die. Of course being a nurse logically I know all of this but you're really not thinking logically, at one point I yelled "I want to be knocked out, knock me out and cut me now!" lol. Needless to say they gave me something to help relax me and brought Shaun in right away. The doctor arrived and things went even faster! Before I knew it they had him out and I heard him cry, Elijah Mason was born at 827pm 5pounds5.8oz 18 inches!!! Things were super exciting but that changed quickly.
All of a sudden they were telling me that they were trying to intubate him, something that I never thought in a million years was going to have to happen. They tried to intubate twice without any luck, he screamed his little lungs out inbetween. They tried cpap which I guess wasn't enough, but his color stayed pink the whole time which was great. They then said they were taking him to the NICU and that Shaun couldn't go with. Once I was all stitched up they took me to the recovery room where I spent a very long, worried 2 hours. They finally let Shaun go see him. He was doing pretty good but they did have to intubate him and put him on the vent, they also put an umbilical IV in to give him sugar and fluids for his blood pressure.
That was the scariest and happiest day of my life! He is now 2 days old and is so beautiful! He is still on the ventilator but doing so well, his blood gases(which tell how well his breathing is doing) are very stable they changed his labs from every six hours to every 12. He goes back and forth from room air oxygen (21%) to 31 % which is still great. His respirations are much more calm now and were getting closer and closer to him getting weaned off the vent. They started TPN tonight (total parental nutrition, which is nutrients with lipids to pretty much feed him for now). They stopped antibiotics because his cultures came back negative. Were hoping in the next few days they may try to do a feeding tube and give him some breast milk! When he starts it will be such a small amount, maybe 1 cc at a time to get his stomach used to it. I was able to change his diaper and do some cares on him today which was amazing. Wednesday he will have a head ultrasound to check that he doesn't have a brain bleed which is always a concern with preemies. They don't seem too concerned because of his gestation (32w6d) and size, but I am not going to breath easy until the ultrasound becasue I was certain he wasn't going on a vent. I will pray pray pray until then that his utlrasound comes back clean. I will also be going home on Wednesday which is going to be a super hard day for me. The day he was born they estimated he will be here 4 weeks, I pray it's an uneventful 4 weeks or maybe less and that it goes by super fast.
Skyler is doing great with him and even kissed the isolette window today after he brought him his first stuffed animal! Please keep Elijah in your prayers, he is such an amazing strong little boy we love him so so so much.
December 1st was an odd feeling day for me. All day I felt a little wierd, Jenny had visited me and I had even told her I felt like I may bleed and that I just didn't feel right. Shaun never sleeps over Saturday nights because he works at 8 in the morning but I had planned to tell him that I thought he should sleep over that night when he called on his break.
So around 530pm Jenny left and I took a shower, then I went on tthe monitor. Elijah had 2 decels(his heart rate went down very briefly) which he has never done before. The nurse had my turn on my side and he was back to normal. I sat up and thought I felt what might be the start to a bleed, my nurse was still in the room so I decided to stand up. I looked at her and said I'm bleeding. So I went to the bathroom and sure enough I was starting to bleed again! I had her grab my cell phone and I called Shaun right away, I was actually very calm calling him but that didn't last! As soon as I hung up I started crying because I knew I was delivering that night and that these were the last minutes I would be pregnant with Elijah.
They got me back to bed and everything started happening very fast. Someone was putting an IV in me (they just took mine out an hour before!), lab came up to draw blood, someone was putting me on the monitor, and anesthesiology was in talking to me. I was shaking like crazy from nerves and I just couldn't stop. They got everything set and wheeled me off to the OR. I was still in my bed where they started to prep me until they moved me to the OR table which was much smaller than I imagined. They had me sit up on the side to start the spinal, I was so incredibly uncomfortable. I was still shaking, I had a million and ten cords being hooked up to every part of my body, I was so scared for Elijah and also nervous Shaun wasn't going to make it in time!
They layed me down on the bed once the spinal was started which went great because my legs got numb pretty fast. They tilted me backwards a bit and towards my left side so I felt like I couldn't breath and I was super dizzy! My blood pressure dropped a little so they fixed that but I still felt like I couldn't breath. I was one of those crazy people yelling that I couldn't breath and that I was going to die! The anesthesiologist kept telling me I was fine, my pox was fine, and that I wasn't going to die. Of course being a nurse logically I know all of this but you're really not thinking logically, at one point I yelled "I want to be knocked out, knock me out and cut me now!" lol. Needless to say they gave me something to help relax me and brought Shaun in right away. The doctor arrived and things went even faster! Before I knew it they had him out and I heard him cry, Elijah Mason was born at 827pm 5pounds5.8oz 18 inches!!! Things were super exciting but that changed quickly.
All of a sudden they were telling me that they were trying to intubate him, something that I never thought in a million years was going to have to happen. They tried to intubate twice without any luck, he screamed his little lungs out inbetween. They tried cpap which I guess wasn't enough, but his color stayed pink the whole time which was great. They then said they were taking him to the NICU and that Shaun couldn't go with. Once I was all stitched up they took me to the recovery room where I spent a very long, worried 2 hours. They finally let Shaun go see him. He was doing pretty good but they did have to intubate him and put him on the vent, they also put an umbilical IV in to give him sugar and fluids for his blood pressure.
That was the scariest and happiest day of my life! He is now 2 days old and is so beautiful! He is still on the ventilator but doing so well, his blood gases(which tell how well his breathing is doing) are very stable they changed his labs from every six hours to every 12. He goes back and forth from room air oxygen (21%) to 31 % which is still great. His respirations are much more calm now and were getting closer and closer to him getting weaned off the vent. They started TPN tonight (total parental nutrition, which is nutrients with lipids to pretty much feed him for now). They stopped antibiotics because his cultures came back negative. Were hoping in the next few days they may try to do a feeding tube and give him some breast milk! When he starts it will be such a small amount, maybe 1 cc at a time to get his stomach used to it. I was able to change his diaper and do some cares on him today which was amazing. Wednesday he will have a head ultrasound to check that he doesn't have a brain bleed which is always a concern with preemies. They don't seem too concerned because of his gestation (32w6d) and size, but I am not going to breath easy until the ultrasound becasue I was certain he wasn't going on a vent. I will pray pray pray until then that his utlrasound comes back clean. I will also be going home on Wednesday which is going to be a super hard day for me. The day he was born they estimated he will be here 4 weeks, I pray it's an uneventful 4 weeks or maybe less and that it goes by super fast.
Skyler is doing great with him and even kissed the isolette window today after he brought him his first stuffed animal! Please keep Elijah in your prayers, he is such an amazing strong little boy we love him so so so much.
Saturday, December 1, 2012
December!!!
I can't believe it's December 1st!!! I can't believe we have made it his far and that tomorrow I will be 33 weeks! Thats a ton better than the 24 we came in at!
Like I said in my last post, the plan is to deliver with the next bleed so fingers crossed that I don't. I guess the other plan is to deliver at 34 weeks regardless. This scares me for many reasons. Reason 1 is that its only9 days away (they would wait til 34w1d), that is so soon and although this pregnancy has sucked I am going to miss feeling him kick so much. Reason 2 is that I want to make sure he has the shortest nicu stay possible. In my head I keep thinking if I make it to 34 weeks why can't we try for 35 weeks and so on, but I get the reasoning...kinda. The doctors keep saying that it's to prevent any further complications. The next bleed I could hemmorage and need blood transfusions, baby could lose blood and become anemic which would make him eating for the first few days harder. So I do get the reasoning but it still seems crazy to me to choose to have a preemie, even though I know thats not what I am doing.
I will need Shaun to be here telling me it's what is best because when it comes down to it I know that I will not think rationally and I will only be thinking about Elijah, not myeslf.
We had a NICU tour the day I got back from labor and delivery this last time, it made me feel so much better. The nurse was so smart and was able to answer all of our questions. She made things so much less scary. Also if he makes it to 34 weeks the chances of him being what they call "feeder and grower" is much better. What that means is that he will be learning to eat, the part of their brain at that stage isn't fully developed so many preemies have a hard time eating at first. If that was the only issue he would have a good chance of coming home before Christmas!
Oh and I know this is pretty stupid but if I do make it to 34 weeks I may ask if we can wait until 34w3d...12/12/12 :-) I think it would be pretty cool to have that as a birthday!
Like I said in my last post, the plan is to deliver with the next bleed so fingers crossed that I don't. I guess the other plan is to deliver at 34 weeks regardless. This scares me for many reasons. Reason 1 is that its only9 days away (they would wait til 34w1d), that is so soon and although this pregnancy has sucked I am going to miss feeling him kick so much. Reason 2 is that I want to make sure he has the shortest nicu stay possible. In my head I keep thinking if I make it to 34 weeks why can't we try for 35 weeks and so on, but I get the reasoning...kinda. The doctors keep saying that it's to prevent any further complications. The next bleed I could hemmorage and need blood transfusions, baby could lose blood and become anemic which would make him eating for the first few days harder. So I do get the reasoning but it still seems crazy to me to choose to have a preemie, even though I know thats not what I am doing.
I will need Shaun to be here telling me it's what is best because when it comes down to it I know that I will not think rationally and I will only be thinking about Elijah, not myeslf.
We had a NICU tour the day I got back from labor and delivery this last time, it made me feel so much better. The nurse was so smart and was able to answer all of our questions. She made things so much less scary. Also if he makes it to 34 weeks the chances of him being what they call "feeder and grower" is much better. What that means is that he will be learning to eat, the part of their brain at that stage isn't fully developed so many preemies have a hard time eating at first. If that was the only issue he would have a good chance of coming home before Christmas!
Oh and I know this is pretty stupid but if I do make it to 34 weeks I may ask if we can wait until 34w3d...12/12/12 :-) I think it would be pretty cool to have that as a birthday!
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Getting very close!
This morning I had another bleed, by far the worst yet. They wanted to start
me on mag and a refused. I wasn't having contractions and just yesterday
morning my dr and I spoke about mag and she said we're past the point of it
working for neuro protection. I am so glad I did refuse because I am not really
having anymore contractions than I usually would have.
But they transferred me to L&D, baby is looking great. I just recieved a dose of rescue steroids (I also got them at 24 weeks) and I can't eat just in case. The md that is on for my dr spoke with one of the perinatologists and they decided that any bleed no matter the size I will have a c-section.
I don't even know what to feel right now. I feel relieved to know there is an end in sight but at the same time so sad that I may only be pregnant for a few more days. I am praying that this little guy is a fighter and doesn't need too much nicu time. I feel terrible my body is failing him and he has to come early and struggle. As upset as I am that this is most likely the last time I will be pregnant I am so thankful I was given another opportunity to become a mother again. Thinking back on our IVF cycle I would've given my left arm for this child so I just have to remember how blessed we really are.
Everyday is less time in the nicu, but it looks like Elijah will be making his debut any day now!
But they transferred me to L&D, baby is looking great. I just recieved a dose of rescue steroids (I also got them at 24 weeks) and I can't eat just in case. The md that is on for my dr spoke with one of the perinatologists and they decided that any bleed no matter the size I will have a c-section.
I don't even know what to feel right now. I feel relieved to know there is an end in sight but at the same time so sad that I may only be pregnant for a few more days. I am praying that this little guy is a fighter and doesn't need too much nicu time. I feel terrible my body is failing him and he has to come early and struggle. As upset as I am that this is most likely the last time I will be pregnant I am so thankful I was given another opportunity to become a mother again. Thinking back on our IVF cycle I would've given my left arm for this child so I just have to remember how blessed we really are.
Everyday is less time in the nicu, but it looks like Elijah will be making his debut any day now!
Saturday, November 24, 2012
8 weeks in the hospital, 32 weeks pregnant!
I need to stop planning things ahead of time! We had planned to put up a little Christmas tree and watch some of the Christmas specials. Well I took a nap from 12-4, woke up to a very small bleed so they threw me on the monitor.
Elijah looked great but I was having contractions that got closer and closer together. Eventually they were 2-3 minutes apart and pretty painful. They decided it was best to start the mag again. I was pretty mad because as I've said before the magnesium sucks but at least I got to stay in my room this time.
I was really hesitant about going on it at first and wanted to try other things but I am actually glad we started more aggressive. It took hours for the contractions to space out and if we would've waited I could've had to deliver or had a massive bleed. I think the worst part of it was I hadn't eaten since 8 am (I slept through lunch) and they didn't let me eat until 8 this morning.
Today I got the new NICU packet for 32-34 weeks, it's technically a day early but thats ok! It is so incredible the differences from the last packets I recieved. The first one I got when I was originally admitted was 24-28 weeks, the risks were so high and scary. The next one I got was for 29-31 weeks, less scary but still not great, a lot of talk of breathing equipment, brain bleeds, and heart issues. The one I recieved today is amazing! I says that he may have to go on a cpap or nasal cannula but because I recieved the steroids earlier there is a good chance he will just breath on his own right away! No real worries about his heart or his brain! The biggest concern will be feeding at this stage and weight gain. Well considering how big he is measuring I am at ease with this and we just have to hope that if he come he stays fat and loves to eat :-) Hopefully only a few more weeks and we can have our lives back, I can't wait to be home with all of my boys!
Elijah looked great but I was having contractions that got closer and closer together. Eventually they were 2-3 minutes apart and pretty painful. They decided it was best to start the mag again. I was pretty mad because as I've said before the magnesium sucks but at least I got to stay in my room this time.
I was really hesitant about going on it at first and wanted to try other things but I am actually glad we started more aggressive. It took hours for the contractions to space out and if we would've waited I could've had to deliver or had a massive bleed. I think the worst part of it was I hadn't eaten since 8 am (I slept through lunch) and they didn't let me eat until 8 this morning.
Today I got the new NICU packet for 32-34 weeks, it's technically a day early but thats ok! It is so incredible the differences from the last packets I recieved. The first one I got when I was originally admitted was 24-28 weeks, the risks were so high and scary. The next one I got was for 29-31 weeks, less scary but still not great, a lot of talk of breathing equipment, brain bleeds, and heart issues. The one I recieved today is amazing! I says that he may have to go on a cpap or nasal cannula but because I recieved the steroids earlier there is a good chance he will just breath on his own right away! No real worries about his heart or his brain! The biggest concern will be feeding at this stage and weight gain. Well considering how big he is measuring I am at ease with this and we just have to hope that if he come he stays fat and loves to eat :-) Hopefully only a few more weeks and we can have our lives back, I can't wait to be home with all of my boys!
Thursday, November 22, 2012
And that makes 5...
Today has already started out crappy, I had my 5th bleed this morning. I am really really praying that little Elijah stays in for a few more weeks!!!! I will be 32 weeks on Sunday and I just hope he can make it another 2 weeks at least.
So while I am feeling sorry for myself I know I have so many things to be thankful for! I am so very thankful for my amazing husband who is doing so much for us right now, I wouldn't want to go through this with anyone else. I am thankful for my awesome son Skyler, he makes everything better I love him more than words can explain. I am so thankful for my mom and sister who have helped out so much during these past 2 months. I am thankful that I am pregnant. This time last year we didn't think we would be able to have another baby and shortly after were told our chances of concieving on our own again were going to be nearly impossible. I am so thankful for the doctor that helped us get pregnant and that I have a little boy growing inside of me! I am most thankful for God, for listening to me and answering my prayers. He has given me 2 little boys and has kept Elijah inside of me. When we came in at 24 weeks we were so scared, we've come so far and although I don't want him to come just we are in a much better position than we were 8 weeks ago.
I hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving and has something to be thankful for this year!
So while I am feeling sorry for myself I know I have so many things to be thankful for! I am so very thankful for my amazing husband who is doing so much for us right now, I wouldn't want to go through this with anyone else. I am thankful for my awesome son Skyler, he makes everything better I love him more than words can explain. I am so thankful for my mom and sister who have helped out so much during these past 2 months. I am thankful that I am pregnant. This time last year we didn't think we would be able to have another baby and shortly after were told our chances of concieving on our own again were going to be nearly impossible. I am so thankful for the doctor that helped us get pregnant and that I have a little boy growing inside of me! I am most thankful for God, for listening to me and answering my prayers. He has given me 2 little boys and has kept Elijah inside of me. When we came in at 24 weeks we were so scared, we've come so far and although I don't want him to come just we are in a much better position than we were 8 weeks ago.
I hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving and has something to be thankful for this year!
Saturday, November 17, 2012
Crappy end to a crappy week
The last few days have been pretty bad. Yesterday I had really bad contractions, they had to give me a fluid bolus and start IVF. Then they had to give me an extra dose of my nefedipine which dropped my bp even with the fluids going.
Today I was hoping for a better day which didn't happen. I think some of my nurses are a bit too comfortable with me at times. I called twice for my nurse to come in with my med for contractions and by the time she did I was having frequent ones. Finally they calmed down so I got to eat and shower (it was 5 days since I was allowed to shower last!). I had a really really bad afternoon broke down for quite some time and ended up falling alseep. When I woke up I was having more contractions and had to be put on the monitor for a good 2 hours and had to be given another bolus. Mary stopped by and visited which was nice because of how awful my day was (more than just the contractions). Oh and my reflux is absolutley killing me even though I am on meds twice a day for it. I am starting to contract again and will probably have to be put on the monitor if I have one for in the next 10 minutes, so heres to another night of no sleep :-(
I really hope tomorrow is better, I am 31 weeks at least! Only 3 more weeks until my doctor's goal!
Today I was hoping for a better day which didn't happen. I think some of my nurses are a bit too comfortable with me at times. I called twice for my nurse to come in with my med for contractions and by the time she did I was having frequent ones. Finally they calmed down so I got to eat and shower (it was 5 days since I was allowed to shower last!). I had a really really bad afternoon broke down for quite some time and ended up falling alseep. When I woke up I was having more contractions and had to be put on the monitor for a good 2 hours and had to be given another bolus. Mary stopped by and visited which was nice because of how awful my day was (more than just the contractions). Oh and my reflux is absolutley killing me even though I am on meds twice a day for it. I am starting to contract again and will probably have to be put on the monitor if I have one for in the next 10 minutes, so heres to another night of no sleep :-(
I really hope tomorrow is better, I am 31 weeks at least! Only 3 more weeks until my doctor's goal!
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Another Scare
This morning I woke up to another bleed, this is my 4th bleed. It was a decent amount and they decided to send me over to labor and delivery and start the stupid mag again. I was hysterical for about an hour after they told me they were moving me, I also yelled at a lab tech drawing my blood which I feel super bad about. I really hate leaving "my" room and going on the mag. Luckily it's been about 12 hours and they have decided to move me back! I am going to stay on the mag though until at least tomorrow morning :-( I did tell them I need to be back by 8 for Greys though lol.
I am so incredibly frustrated with feeling like I have no control of the situation! But Elijah looks great at always and thats what is important. Doctor said again today that her goal is for me to make it to 34 weeks, I really really want to make it further than that. The nurse I had today said she had her baby at 34 weeks and he got to go home 12 days later which is super encouraging! I would like no nicu time but 12 days wouldn't be the end of the world. I just hope I stay super quiet for the next few weeks!
Oh and I am super excited for Shaun this weekend, he has a "man date" haha. He is going to watch the fights with a good friend. I am so happy he is able to do something for him because he is doing such an incredible job being a "single" daddy right now. He has been so great taking care of Skyler and keeping the house nice, and doing his best to visit me just about every day. I am extremley blessed to have such an amazing husband and father for my children. So thanks mom for watching Skyler once again so he can do this :-) I don't know what we would do without my mom and sister right now they have been helping us so so so so much, thank you guys so much you have absolutley no idea how much we love and appreciate you guys!
Thanks everyone for your continued thoughts and prayers!
I am so incredibly frustrated with feeling like I have no control of the situation! But Elijah looks great at always and thats what is important. Doctor said again today that her goal is for me to make it to 34 weeks, I really really want to make it further than that. The nurse I had today said she had her baby at 34 weeks and he got to go home 12 days later which is super encouraging! I would like no nicu time but 12 days wouldn't be the end of the world. I just hope I stay super quiet for the next few weeks!
Oh and I am super excited for Shaun this weekend, he has a "man date" haha. He is going to watch the fights with a good friend. I am so happy he is able to do something for him because he is doing such an incredible job being a "single" daddy right now. He has been so great taking care of Skyler and keeping the house nice, and doing his best to visit me just about every day. I am extremley blessed to have such an amazing husband and father for my children. So thanks mom for watching Skyler once again so he can do this :-) I don't know what we would do without my mom and sister right now they have been helping us so so so so much, thank you guys so much you have absolutley no idea how much we love and appreciate you guys!
Thanks everyone for your continued thoughts and prayers!
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Were going to have a big boy!
Today was my ultrasound I am 30w2d! Elijah looked great, moving like crazy as always. He weighed in at a whopping 4lbs5oz! Technically he is measuring about 2 weeks ahead, but of course the ultrasounds can be off a bit. We saw him "practicing" breathing which was great! She asked right away if we had gotten the steroids, so that made me feel better that they obviously have helped. He was also yawning, it was so cute.
Now the big question was how the placenta looked. It's still a complete, which means it's still covering the cervix. It's moved up from where it was originally which is good but at the moment if it stays where it is I will have to delivery at 36 weeks. If it moves up enough to be considered a partial I can go to 37 or 38 weeks depending on how the next ultrasounds look. My doctor had said in the past that if I were to have a decent bleed after 34 weeks she would just deliver me so I really hope I can hang on until at least 36 weeks.
Although 36 weeks is only 4 weeks from my due date and 1 week until he is considered "full term", he would still be considered late term preemie. The main concern with babies that are considered late term preemie is feeding and gaining weight. He may need to go to the nicu to help him with eating but he also may be able to come home with us right away which is what we will be praying for!
We are so very thankful that he is looking good and that I am still pregnant. Heres to at least another 5 weeks and 5 days!
Now the big question was how the placenta looked. It's still a complete, which means it's still covering the cervix. It's moved up from where it was originally which is good but at the moment if it stays where it is I will have to delivery at 36 weeks. If it moves up enough to be considered a partial I can go to 37 or 38 weeks depending on how the next ultrasounds look. My doctor had said in the past that if I were to have a decent bleed after 34 weeks she would just deliver me so I really hope I can hang on until at least 36 weeks.
Although 36 weeks is only 4 weeks from my due date and 1 week until he is considered "full term", he would still be considered late term preemie. The main concern with babies that are considered late term preemie is feeding and gaining weight. He may need to go to the nicu to help him with eating but he also may be able to come home with us right away which is what we will be praying for!
We are so very thankful that he is looking good and that I am still pregnant. Heres to at least another 5 weeks and 5 days!
Tuesday, November 6, 2012
Not the news I wanted
I see the other doctors way more than I see her, especially the one doctor I am not too fond of. But, when I do see her it's always great because she really tells me whats going on and I trust her 100%
After my bleed on Saturday they started me on a drug called nefedipine, it helps to stop contractions which can cause bleeding in a previa patient. I was really hesitant to take it but it seems to be helping a lot with the contractions!
Today when my doctor stopped in we talked for a while about the "plan" and I must say I am a bit disapointed. She kept saying how happy she is that I will be 30 weeks this Sunday and how that is a huge milestone (which I know but, she kept saying it as if she didn't expect me to make it this far). Then I had mentioned how I had joked with Shaun that after Elijah is born that we will still have to stay in the hospital for 4 days before we can go home. She said that we can stay less but most parents like to stay because the baby has to stay....ummm huh? She says she is expecting NICU time for him, which breaks my heart. I don't want to have him early, I don't want to have to leave him here without us.
I was really hoping for at least 36 weeks but really wanting 38 weeks! She says that if more bleeding happens that as we get closer to 36 weeks depending on how bad the bleeds are she might want to just deliver me. I am really really praying that we make it to at least 36 to minimize NICU time and complications, also I've read many stories where the baby is born at 35 weeks and gets to actually go home. Shaun was born at 34 weeks and that was a loooooong time ago ;-)
We have another u/s next Tuesday morning so we will know more then! I just ask that everyone keeps praying for me and Elijah and that he stays in as long as he needs to so that we can take our little guy home right away!
After my bleed on Saturday they started me on a drug called nefedipine, it helps to stop contractions which can cause bleeding in a previa patient. I was really hesitant to take it but it seems to be helping a lot with the contractions!
Today when my doctor stopped in we talked for a while about the "plan" and I must say I am a bit disapointed. She kept saying how happy she is that I will be 30 weeks this Sunday and how that is a huge milestone (which I know but, she kept saying it as if she didn't expect me to make it this far). Then I had mentioned how I had joked with Shaun that after Elijah is born that we will still have to stay in the hospital for 4 days before we can go home. She said that we can stay less but most parents like to stay because the baby has to stay....ummm huh? She says she is expecting NICU time for him, which breaks my heart. I don't want to have him early, I don't want to have to leave him here without us.
I was really hoping for at least 36 weeks but really wanting 38 weeks! She says that if more bleeding happens that as we get closer to 36 weeks depending on how bad the bleeds are she might want to just deliver me. I am really really praying that we make it to at least 36 to minimize NICU time and complications, also I've read many stories where the baby is born at 35 weeks and gets to actually go home. Shaun was born at 34 weeks and that was a loooooong time ago ;-)
We have another u/s next Tuesday morning so we will know more then! I just ask that everyone keeps praying for me and Elijah and that he stays in as long as he needs to so that we can take our little guy home right away!
Saturday, November 3, 2012
Going on 5 weeks
This week has been quite the eventful week unfortunatley. Since Monday I was having contractions on and off, some prety bad ones too. Wednesday night I starting having terrible pain so they hooked me up to the monitor and I was having very frequent contractions, they were talking about sending me over to labor and delivery. They started an IV and gave me 2 boluses of fluid and then did a continuous drip for a while, that seemed to calm things down thank God!
Since then things were quiet, until this morning. I had another bleed! It wasn't awful but it was enough. They had a million nurses in here, I told Shaun I felt like a patient during a code! They hooked me up to the monitor, baby Elijah looked great and not too many contractions. They also started another IV and fluids. I bled a little on and off today but it has seemed to stop, so lets cross our fingers it does!
Mary, Michael, and Mary's mom came to visit me tonight which was great. Saturdays are usually lonley days/nights for me. They brought me chipotle which was soooo good! I was good also and didn't eat the tortilla to cut back on carbs :-)
I will be 29 weeks tomorrow which is great! I am really excited to hit 30 weeks though, although I will probably not be content until I hit 36 weeks!
Since then things were quiet, until this morning. I had another bleed! It wasn't awful but it was enough. They had a million nurses in here, I told Shaun I felt like a patient during a code! They hooked me up to the monitor, baby Elijah looked great and not too many contractions. They also started another IV and fluids. I bled a little on and off today but it has seemed to stop, so lets cross our fingers it does!
Mary, Michael, and Mary's mom came to visit me tonight which was great. Saturdays are usually lonley days/nights for me. They brought me chipotle which was soooo good! I was good also and didn't eat the tortilla to cut back on carbs :-)
I will be 29 weeks tomorrow which is great! I am really excited to hit 30 weeks though, although I will probably not be content until I hit 36 weeks!
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Trick or treat!
I am 28 weeks today, yay for 3rd trimester!!! Today is trick or treating so Shaun and Skyler are out doing that! I am sad becasue it's the first time Skyler is doing it, but I am so so happy Shaun was able to take him! I am so blessed to have a husband that loves our son as much as he does! He just texted me that he is never missing trick or treat and that our son is amazing :-)
They will be up here later today so I can see him in his awesome spiderman costume that he picked out. I have some candy Shaun brought me yesterday to throw in his bag, and the staff here also made Skyler a little bag!
Otherwise I will just be hanging out watching the game waiting for them to get here. Oh and I have been doing tons more research on cloth diapers! I am so excited to do that this time around!
They will be up here later today so I can see him in his awesome spiderman costume that he picked out. I have some candy Shaun brought me yesterday to throw in his bag, and the staff here also made Skyler a little bag!
Otherwise I will just be hanging out watching the game waiting for them to get here. Oh and I have been doing tons more research on cloth diapers! I am so excited to do that this time around!
Friday, October 26, 2012
A rough few days
Yesterday was a pretty bad day. I was still in labor and delivery during the day, crying on and off all day. Shaun wasn't able to be there so I was alone and the nurses are so busy that I had no one to help me. If you've ever been on mag you know how terrible you feel, plus I was hooked up to a million different things and couldn't get out of bed.
Mid breakdown for the millionth time that day, one of my favorite nurses from antepartum came in to say hi. She ended up getting my nurse to call the doctor and getting me tranfered early! I never thougth I'd be so happy to be back in my old room, but I was and I felt so much better.
I got off of the mag drip this morning which was great and I am back to being monitored 3 times a day instead of continous, in a few days I should be 2 times a day. No new bleeding but I have been having some contractions here and there, hopefully they don't turn into anything.
Tonight has been hard. I miss being home, I miss Skyler so so much. He is having a really hard time with this. I know he loves my mom but he just wants his mommy and daddy so bad. I feel like I am missing so much and that he is going to be so different by the time I get out of here. I am also scared that when we come home with Elijah that Skyler is going to be upset that finally when mom comes home she brings this new person that takes up our time. I just pray that everything will work out. I get so mad when I think of everything that I have been through to get pregnant and then everything that I am going through. But I have to keep telling myself that I am blessed to be pregnant, blessed to continue to stay pregnant, and blessed to be having a healthy baby boy. It gets hard at times though because it's almost as if I have to mourn all the plans I had for my pregnancy and labor. Things will get better, this I know.
Mid breakdown for the millionth time that day, one of my favorite nurses from antepartum came in to say hi. She ended up getting my nurse to call the doctor and getting me tranfered early! I never thougth I'd be so happy to be back in my old room, but I was and I felt so much better.
I got off of the mag drip this morning which was great and I am back to being monitored 3 times a day instead of continous, in a few days I should be 2 times a day. No new bleeding but I have been having some contractions here and there, hopefully they don't turn into anything.
Tonight has been hard. I miss being home, I miss Skyler so so much. He is having a really hard time with this. I know he loves my mom but he just wants his mommy and daddy so bad. I feel like I am missing so much and that he is going to be so different by the time I get out of here. I am also scared that when we come home with Elijah that Skyler is going to be upset that finally when mom comes home she brings this new person that takes up our time. I just pray that everything will work out. I get so mad when I think of everything that I have been through to get pregnant and then everything that I am going through. But I have to keep telling myself that I am blessed to be pregnant, blessed to continue to stay pregnant, and blessed to be having a healthy baby boy. It gets hard at times though because it's almost as if I have to mourn all the plans I had for my pregnancy and labor. Things will get better, this I know.
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Didn't expect this to happen
So I posted about how I was home last night. It was so incredibly nice to sleep in my own bed with Shaun, I havn't slept that good since I've been in the hospital. This all might be TMI for some so you can scroll along if you want! We woke up around 830, Shaun got out of bed right away to let the dogs out. I got up pretty much right after him because like every morning I had to pee really bad! When I stood up I thought I peed my pant (people with kids know this isn't crazy during pregnancy lol). So I just went straight to the bathroom and saw blood. It was much much more than last time. I got hyseterical until Shaun came back to the bathroom, I knew I was headed back to the hospital and that I wasn't coming back home until I deliver.
So I called my doctors office, got dressed, and left the house. We went to labor and delivery where they hooked me up to the monitor. When I got to the hospital I was still bleeding a bit but not as bad. Elijah looked good on the monitor but they were concerned about my cramping and contractions I was having. They started me on the magnesium drip again to stop the contractions which so far is working. I will stay on the drip until Friday morning and then I will go back to the floor I was on this whole time. It was nice because one of the nurses I had all the time came to say hi, of course I lost it again when I saw her because just yesterday I was saying bye! They are saving my old room for me and even brought over my bed I was in because it's much more comfortable than the ones in labor and delivery. I finally got to eat because they wern't letting me since I got here.
I still am in shock that I am back here so so soon, I feel like I am going to wake up and it is all going to be a bad nightmare. It was so amazing being back at home and sleeping next to my husband again. The worst part is that I barley got to see Skyler. He went to school not too long after I got home yesterday, and then shortly after he got back home Shaun had to take him to my moms because Shaun worked last night. I feel so so terrible for him, he was so excited that I got to come home.
I have to keep thinking I am lucky that Elijah still looks good and is still inside of me, but it is really emotionally draining to be here.
So I called my doctors office, got dressed, and left the house. We went to labor and delivery where they hooked me up to the monitor. When I got to the hospital I was still bleeding a bit but not as bad. Elijah looked good on the monitor but they were concerned about my cramping and contractions I was having. They started me on the magnesium drip again to stop the contractions which so far is working. I will stay on the drip until Friday morning and then I will go back to the floor I was on this whole time. It was nice because one of the nurses I had all the time came to say hi, of course I lost it again when I saw her because just yesterday I was saying bye! They are saving my old room for me and even brought over my bed I was in because it's much more comfortable than the ones in labor and delivery. I finally got to eat because they wern't letting me since I got here.
I still am in shock that I am back here so so soon, I feel like I am going to wake up and it is all going to be a bad nightmare. It was so amazing being back at home and sleeping next to my husband again. The worst part is that I barley got to see Skyler. He went to school not too long after I got home yesterday, and then shortly after he got back home Shaun had to take him to my moms because Shaun worked last night. I feel so so terrible for him, he was so excited that I got to come home.
I have to keep thinking I am lucky that Elijah still looks good and is still inside of me, but it is really emotionally draining to be here.
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
Home!!!!
After 3 weeks and 1 day I finally got to go home today! We had an ultrasound this morning with the perinatologist, he said baby looks amazing aside from being a little on the large side, I say I just make big babies! The placenta still hasn't moved away from the cervix but everything else looks ok so he said he feels ok if I go home. He did also say though that if I were to have another bleed that I am in the hospital for good, that definitley is going to keep me being safe at home!
So now that I am at home I am on strict bedrest! I can use the bathroom and take a shower but thats about it. Skyler has to go to my moms house when Shaun works though. So tonight I am home alone which kinda sucks but it is better than the hospital! I took a shower tonight (with a shower chair lol) and it was amazing! The water pressure sucked so much at the hospital and the water was never very warm.
The thing I will probably miss most about the hospital besides some of the great nurses is being able to order food. When I am home alone I have to be able to heat something up very quick so were going to have to work on whats available to me. I am also going to also miss being hooked up to the monitor twice a day, I did love hearing Elijah's heartbeat! But he moves around plenty!!!
The bedrest is getting to me a bit, my head, neck, back, and ribs are killing me! I never thought laying around all day would make me so sore.
Thanks again to everyone for their thoughts and prayers, we really appreciate it!
So now that I am at home I am on strict bedrest! I can use the bathroom and take a shower but thats about it. Skyler has to go to my moms house when Shaun works though. So tonight I am home alone which kinda sucks but it is better than the hospital! I took a shower tonight (with a shower chair lol) and it was amazing! The water pressure sucked so much at the hospital and the water was never very warm.
The thing I will probably miss most about the hospital besides some of the great nurses is being able to order food. When I am home alone I have to be able to heat something up very quick so were going to have to work on whats available to me. I am also going to also miss being hooked up to the monitor twice a day, I did love hearing Elijah's heartbeat! But he moves around plenty!!!
The bedrest is getting to me a bit, my head, neck, back, and ribs are killing me! I never thought laying around all day would make me so sore.
Thanks again to everyone for their thoughts and prayers, we really appreciate it!
Sunday, October 21, 2012
27 weeks, a HUGE milestone for me, and the story behind it!
Today I am 27 weeks! When I came in I was 24 weeks and scared to death, in the back of my mind I kept thinking about a friend.
When I was in beauty school I met someone who was pregnant with her first and was due a few weeks after I was due with Skyler (I was due the end of jan. she was due in feb.). It obviously was a complete shock when I found out that sometime in November of that year, the girl I knew had her baby girl!
When I was admitted and they started giving me meds to stop contractions I texted her and asked her how far along was she when she had her daughter. She said 27 weeks :-) That beautiful little girl is going to be 4 next month! Now I know that 27 weeks isn't ideal, but knowing someone who had their baby that early and everything ended up ok, that made me long for 27 weeks to come! It's finally here and I am so happy, although 28 weeks is a huge milestone as well as 30,32, and 34! But I made it to my milestone in my head. Also according to the march of dimes website, babies born at 27 weeks have a 90 percent chance of survival. I pray that he stays in for much longer but if not at least we've made it this far!
Tomorrow is a big day as well, not only will I have been here for 3 weeks, but I get another ultrasound! This ultrasound will determine if I may be able to go home!!!!!!! My doctor feels that if the ultrasound comes back and the perninatologist gives me the ok, then I will be able to go home. Once at home I will still be on very strict bedrest just like here, I can only go to the bathroom and shower every other day. Also Skyler can't be home alone with me so we will continue what we have been doing with my mom. It's going to still suck but at least it would be home! I will have doctor appt. at least every other week and then every week depending on ultrasounds. So at least I will get to go for a car ride :-) So I am praying that the ultrasound looks good and I get to go home and be with my boys, sleep in my own bed, and take a shower in my own bathroom! The only thing I might miss is being able to call for food because I am not allowed to make my own food, so Shaun will have to make sure I have food ready for me when he is not home.
I will update tomorrow the results of the ultrasound unless it gets pushed back to Tuesday, wish me luck and say a prayer!
When I was in beauty school I met someone who was pregnant with her first and was due a few weeks after I was due with Skyler (I was due the end of jan. she was due in feb.). It obviously was a complete shock when I found out that sometime in November of that year, the girl I knew had her baby girl!
When I was admitted and they started giving me meds to stop contractions I texted her and asked her how far along was she when she had her daughter. She said 27 weeks :-) That beautiful little girl is going to be 4 next month! Now I know that 27 weeks isn't ideal, but knowing someone who had their baby that early and everything ended up ok, that made me long for 27 weeks to come! It's finally here and I am so happy, although 28 weeks is a huge milestone as well as 30,32, and 34! But I made it to my milestone in my head. Also according to the march of dimes website, babies born at 27 weeks have a 90 percent chance of survival. I pray that he stays in for much longer but if not at least we've made it this far!
Tomorrow is a big day as well, not only will I have been here for 3 weeks, but I get another ultrasound! This ultrasound will determine if I may be able to go home!!!!!!! My doctor feels that if the ultrasound comes back and the perninatologist gives me the ok, then I will be able to go home. Once at home I will still be on very strict bedrest just like here, I can only go to the bathroom and shower every other day. Also Skyler can't be home alone with me so we will continue what we have been doing with my mom. It's going to still suck but at least it would be home! I will have doctor appt. at least every other week and then every week depending on ultrasounds. So at least I will get to go for a car ride :-) So I am praying that the ultrasound looks good and I get to go home and be with my boys, sleep in my own bed, and take a shower in my own bathroom! The only thing I might miss is being able to call for food because I am not allowed to make my own food, so Shaun will have to make sure I have food ready for me when he is not home.
I will update tomorrow the results of the ultrasound unless it gets pushed back to Tuesday, wish me luck and say a prayer!
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Good news, bad news, and a picture!
Havn't posted in a few days! Good news, today I am 26w3d!!! I'm super excited to be approaching the 27w mark, I'll post why next week :-)
I had wrote that I had my GD test Sunday which I failed. I took the 3 hour test on Monday. The nurse called the resident and the resident said that I had passed. I felt like it was wierd because the nurse said she wasn't sure if I passed or not. Well my doctor came to see me today and looks like the resident read the test result wrong and I did fail! So I officially have gestational diabetes! Now I have to do blood sugar 4 times a day, in the AM when I first wake up so a fasting one, then a blood sugar 1hr after each meal. I also have been put on a diet so I have to carb count and a diabetic educator is going to talk to me today. I feel so confident at work when I teach patients about diabetes but all of a sudden I feel so lost in all of this! Now my poor fingers are going to be all bruised :-(
Yesterday one of the on call doctors saw me, who I have not been to fond of. She basically told me that she didn't understand why I havn't gone home yet. She said, don't you have relatives that can help? I say, not really it's my husband and my mom. Then she says, why don't you have your mom move in? I say she has a 15 year old at home and I don't have a very large house at all. Then she says well then you can move in with your mom...umm no my mom lives in a decent size apartment but has 3 adults living there and my 15 year old sister. And honestly if I am not going home home I might as well be in the hospital!
So that doctor made my a bit upset and I spoke with my doctor today about it. I asked her what I would have to do exactly to go home. She basically said the same things again, 24 hour child care but she did say that it would be ok for me to be home for short periods of time by myself, Skyler is not allowed to be home alone with me though.(that makes me feel like I have supervised visits with my son lol). So were going to consider me going home if we can assure that we keep doing what we are doing as far as childcare. Things get a bit more complicated now though that I have GD because I have to get that all set it. She said if I decide that I really want to go home (which obviously I do) that we will do another ultrasound to make sure nothing has gotten worse.
I think that I am going to revisit this idea at 28 weeks, I will feel more safe the further along I get. I am nervous at the idea that I could have a large bleed at home when I am alone though. I get nervous that I wouldn't get to the hospital in time, in which I was told I have to call the ambulance if I am home alone and the bleed is bad. I also get nervous that I would be in such shock it would take me longer than needed to call. Ugh I don't know what is best! I guess I will take it day by day and as we get closer to 28 weeks, we just have to hope that there is no bleeding or contractions and then there will be the possibility of me being able to be at home! That would be great for the holidays!
Last thing, I crocheted a hat yesterday. I am going to make Skyler and Elijah matching hats out of a blue yarn I have!
I had wrote that I had my GD test Sunday which I failed. I took the 3 hour test on Monday. The nurse called the resident and the resident said that I had passed. I felt like it was wierd because the nurse said she wasn't sure if I passed or not. Well my doctor came to see me today and looks like the resident read the test result wrong and I did fail! So I officially have gestational diabetes! Now I have to do blood sugar 4 times a day, in the AM when I first wake up so a fasting one, then a blood sugar 1hr after each meal. I also have been put on a diet so I have to carb count and a diabetic educator is going to talk to me today. I feel so confident at work when I teach patients about diabetes but all of a sudden I feel so lost in all of this! Now my poor fingers are going to be all bruised :-(
Yesterday one of the on call doctors saw me, who I have not been to fond of. She basically told me that she didn't understand why I havn't gone home yet. She said, don't you have relatives that can help? I say, not really it's my husband and my mom. Then she says, why don't you have your mom move in? I say she has a 15 year old at home and I don't have a very large house at all. Then she says well then you can move in with your mom...umm no my mom lives in a decent size apartment but has 3 adults living there and my 15 year old sister. And honestly if I am not going home home I might as well be in the hospital!
So that doctor made my a bit upset and I spoke with my doctor today about it. I asked her what I would have to do exactly to go home. She basically said the same things again, 24 hour child care but she did say that it would be ok for me to be home for short periods of time by myself, Skyler is not allowed to be home alone with me though.(that makes me feel like I have supervised visits with my son lol). So were going to consider me going home if we can assure that we keep doing what we are doing as far as childcare. Things get a bit more complicated now though that I have GD because I have to get that all set it. She said if I decide that I really want to go home (which obviously I do) that we will do another ultrasound to make sure nothing has gotten worse.
I think that I am going to revisit this idea at 28 weeks, I will feel more safe the further along I get. I am nervous at the idea that I could have a large bleed at home when I am alone though. I get nervous that I wouldn't get to the hospital in time, in which I was told I have to call the ambulance if I am home alone and the bleed is bad. I also get nervous that I would be in such shock it would take me longer than needed to call. Ugh I don't know what is best! I guess I will take it day by day and as we get closer to 28 weeks, we just have to hope that there is no bleeding or contractions and then there will be the possibility of me being able to be at home! That would be great for the holidays!
Sunday, October 14, 2012
26 weeks!
Yet another milestone! 26 weeks today! So glad Elijah has stayed in this long and everything has been very calm! Thank the lord! I did take my GD (gestational diabetes) test today and I failed :-( I knew I was going to fail too. I told Shaun yesterday that I just knew I'd fail it! So at 430 in the morning I start the 3 hour test. I have to drink double the amount of that disgusting orange drink! I always tell everyone it's not that bad because I didn't remember it being that bad with Skyler! Well sorry everyone I've ever told that to, I lied, it's awful. I felt sick for a good 3-4 hours afterwards too, so who knows what I will feel like tomorrow. Just praying that I pass the test!
I got wheel chair privaleges back!!! So once a day someone can take me down to the cafeteria or just for a walk around the hospital in a wheel chair. It will be nice to see something else besides my room.
Skyler and Shaun came tonight and we watched the Packer game. They just left and we are playing really good so hopefully we end up winning! Sometimes I think it's harder when they come and have to leave just a few hours later than if the didn't come at all. Of course I want to see them everyday I can but I get so down when I know they're leaving, and when they leave I get really sad still because I am stuck here and they get to go home. I miss my house, my bed, my shower! The shower here is absolutley terrible, no water pressure at all. I miss my dogs too :-(
Some parts of me want to talk to my doctor about being able to go home if things still look ok soon, but I know Shaun is really worried about me coming home. I know I am in the safest place for me and Elijah but it would be so so so nice to be at home on bedrest instead. I have to keep thinking to myself how hard it would be to just sit on the couch or bed and not do anything with Skyler, not clean, not cook dinner. I just need to stay safe, Elijah will be here before we know it and we will be able to go home (and I can take a very very long shower :-) )
Well, this was a long post! I will post tomorrow how the GD test went. Until then I am going to continue my newst tv show obsession, Revenge! I'm almost through the 1st season it's sooo good!
I got wheel chair privaleges back!!! So once a day someone can take me down to the cafeteria or just for a walk around the hospital in a wheel chair. It will be nice to see something else besides my room.
Skyler and Shaun came tonight and we watched the Packer game. They just left and we are playing really good so hopefully we end up winning! Sometimes I think it's harder when they come and have to leave just a few hours later than if the didn't come at all. Of course I want to see them everyday I can but I get so down when I know they're leaving, and when they leave I get really sad still because I am stuck here and they get to go home. I miss my house, my bed, my shower! The shower here is absolutley terrible, no water pressure at all. I miss my dogs too :-(
Some parts of me want to talk to my doctor about being able to go home if things still look ok soon, but I know Shaun is really worried about me coming home. I know I am in the safest place for me and Elijah but it would be so so so nice to be at home on bedrest instead. I have to keep thinking to myself how hard it would be to just sit on the couch or bed and not do anything with Skyler, not clean, not cook dinner. I just need to stay safe, Elijah will be here before we know it and we will be able to go home (and I can take a very very long shower :-) )
Well, this was a long post! I will post tomorrow how the GD test went. Until then I am going to continue my newst tv show obsession, Revenge! I'm almost through the 1st season it's sooo good!
Friday, October 12, 2012
TGIF?
It's Friday!!! That means one more to has to go by before I am another week pregnant! (I finally got an accurate answer as to when I "change", it's on Sundays). Skyler and Shaun got here around 1030 and left not too long ago, they are going to come back later tonight and spend the night :-) I've been spoiled this week. My mom and sister are going to come by soon too!
I read another moms blog last night about her baby that was just born, she also had placenta previa. When I was reading it I finally came across her due date...January 20th, that's my due date. It really made me so so very thankful that God has kept little Elijah inside me for this long even. We are truly so very blessed, he is really a miracle. He does a good job at keeping me calm too, he kicks so much which is very reassuring! Last night he stretched out and I felt him in 3 spots at once. Then he likes to stick his head out (I know it's his head becasue of the u/s) and there is just a round ball sticking out haha. I always rub his head and talk to him, hopefully it's true what they say that babies recongnize your voice because I probably look like a crazy lady how much I talk to him.
Shaun is going to go by me a mini Christmas tree for my room! Don't worry I won't put it up for a while, I just have Kohl's cash and it is on sale so it's a really good deal.
The weekends are going to be the hardest because Shaun works so I don't get to see them a ton, but thats ok because I plan to finish my first blanket and the most exciting, I get my GD testing on Sunday!!!! WOO HOO, just kidding, with everything else that has gone crazy I am pretty sure I will fail this lol.
I just want to thank everyone who reads my blog and all the messages I have recieved and just well wishes, it means a lot to know people are thinking about us.
I read another moms blog last night about her baby that was just born, she also had placenta previa. When I was reading it I finally came across her due date...January 20th, that's my due date. It really made me so so very thankful that God has kept little Elijah inside me for this long even. We are truly so very blessed, he is really a miracle. He does a good job at keeping me calm too, he kicks so much which is very reassuring! Last night he stretched out and I felt him in 3 spots at once. Then he likes to stick his head out (I know it's his head becasue of the u/s) and there is just a round ball sticking out haha. I always rub his head and talk to him, hopefully it's true what they say that babies recongnize your voice because I probably look like a crazy lady how much I talk to him.
Shaun is going to go by me a mini Christmas tree for my room! Don't worry I won't put it up for a while, I just have Kohl's cash and it is on sale so it's a really good deal.
The weekends are going to be the hardest because Shaun works so I don't get to see them a ton, but thats ok because I plan to finish my first blanket and the most exciting, I get my GD testing on Sunday!!!! WOO HOO, just kidding, with everything else that has gone crazy I am pretty sure I will fail this lol.
I just want to thank everyone who reads my blog and all the messages I have recieved and just well wishes, it means a lot to know people are thinking about us.
Thursday, October 11, 2012
Whelp I had a plan all day today! It was to watch Greys and scandal and 8 comes around and it's not on!!!! Ugh
Shaun and skyler slept over last night and left around 11 this am. It was nice seeing them for so long. They were gonna sleep over tonight but I told Shaun to stay at home. I think skyler needs some time at home just to play. Hopefully I'll see them for a while tomorrow though!
When Shaun left this morning he took the laptop thinking he was coming back :( so now I'm without a computer and I'm writing this on my phone! Thank goodness for iPhones!
Now I'm going to watch the debate and go to bed early :)
Shaun and skyler slept over last night and left around 11 this am. It was nice seeing them for so long. They were gonna sleep over tonight but I told Shaun to stay at home. I think skyler needs some time at home just to play. Hopefully I'll see them for a while tomorrow though!
When Shaun left this morning he took the laptop thinking he was coming back :( so now I'm without a computer and I'm writing this on my phone! Thank goodness for iPhones!
Now I'm going to watch the debate and go to bed early :)
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
Last night was really really rough for me. I got really upset thinking about how I am not there for Skyler and how I am going to not be home for 3 months of his life! So I cried hysterically for a while and then Shaun called from work, cried a little more. Then after work my amazing husband came to spend the night (Skyler was by my moms). It was so nice to have him here even though we went to bed right away. I miss them so much and whenever I am alone I have way to much time to think.
Otherwise today I spoke with a lactaction consultant regarding breast feeding preemies and worked with a physical therapist on bedrest excercises. Christy came and visited again...for 5 hours! We just kept chatting and time flew by! Its so nice having someone here to talk to.
They boys are here again tonight, Skyler was sleeping when they got here and stayed asleep. Shaun and I played rummy and he beat me like always :-) When I wake up i will be 25w4d! Thank you Lord!
Otherwise today I spoke with a lactaction consultant regarding breast feeding preemies and worked with a physical therapist on bedrest excercises. Christy came and visited again...for 5 hours! We just kept chatting and time flew by! Its so nice having someone here to talk to.
They boys are here again tonight, Skyler was sleeping when they got here and stayed asleep. Shaun and I played rummy and he beat me like always :-) When I wake up i will be 25w4d! Thank you Lord!
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Feeling Loved
I've been feeling pretty loved, I have had so many friends come and visit! So thanks everyone who has come and visited me, it's very much appreciated. It makes time go by much faster!
Last night was great having Skyler and Shaun spend the night. We ended up sleeping by 10 but I slept so much better just having them here than I have been when they are at home. Tomorrow night they are going to go to church and then spend the night again :-)
Shaun sent me some pictures today of the valance he put up in Elijah's room, so now the room is officially complete! He also put the stroller together, took out the car seat and sent pictures of that. I got a little emotional just because I feel like everything is being taken away from me during this pregnancy. We went through so much to get pregnant and now this, God is definitley testing us for something big, but I know he will not give us more than we can handle! I still get jealous of people who get pregnant so easily and have such easy pregnancies. I know thats wrong and I am truly happy for other people, but there is part of me that will always be a bit jealous. Good news is that even though we went through all of this so far Elijah is looking super healthy and is still in my belly, and thats what I will continue to focus on!
My crocheting is coming along, I need some practice but I am getting better!
Medically nothing new has happened, thank God. Elijah has been kicking like a crazy man, which I love love love!
Now I get to crochet, watch private practice, and eat my turtle custard Niki and Brian brought me!
Last night was great having Skyler and Shaun spend the night. We ended up sleeping by 10 but I slept so much better just having them here than I have been when they are at home. Tomorrow night they are going to go to church and then spend the night again :-)
Shaun sent me some pictures today of the valance he put up in Elijah's room, so now the room is officially complete! He also put the stroller together, took out the car seat and sent pictures of that. I got a little emotional just because I feel like everything is being taken away from me during this pregnancy. We went through so much to get pregnant and now this, God is definitley testing us for something big, but I know he will not give us more than we can handle! I still get jealous of people who get pregnant so easily and have such easy pregnancies. I know thats wrong and I am truly happy for other people, but there is part of me that will always be a bit jealous. Good news is that even though we went through all of this so far Elijah is looking super healthy and is still in my belly, and thats what I will continue to focus on!
My crocheting is coming along, I need some practice but I am getting better!
Medically nothing new has happened, thank God. Elijah has been kicking like a crazy man, which I love love love!
Now I get to crochet, watch private practice, and eat my turtle custard Niki and Brian brought me!
Monday, October 8, 2012
1 week and a stage 4 later
It's been one week since I was admitted. I still can't believe everything that has happened, I am so so thankful to the lord that me and Elijah are safe!
This morning I got to see my doctor and we decided it is best if I stay here. It freaked me out because if I were to go home and a blood vessel broke I could lose a lot of blood very very quickly. The way the doctors make it sound also is that it's not if I bleed again but when and how bad, so although I want to go home so so bad, I know that here is the safest place for us to be right now.
After I spoke with my doctor I got a suprise ultrasound! I will see baby Elijah any chance I can! He is so cute already, looks just like Skyler on the 3d ultrasound. I still get emotional at every ulrasound :-)
I officially decided on a school today so yay me. AND I got uprgraded to a stage 4 mattress lol! So far my butt feels much better, although I do feel like a patient on 4EF :-)
Skyler and Shaun are going to sleep over tonight, which I am so very excited about. It's going to be nice to have them here all night. We're going to try to do sleepovers Monday and Wednesday nights. Now I just get to wait impatiently for my boys to get here!
This morning I got to see my doctor and we decided it is best if I stay here. It freaked me out because if I were to go home and a blood vessel broke I could lose a lot of blood very very quickly. The way the doctors make it sound also is that it's not if I bleed again but when and how bad, so although I want to go home so so bad, I know that here is the safest place for us to be right now.
After I spoke with my doctor I got a suprise ultrasound! I will see baby Elijah any chance I can! He is so cute already, looks just like Skyler on the 3d ultrasound. I still get emotional at every ulrasound :-)
I officially decided on a school today so yay me. AND I got uprgraded to a stage 4 mattress lol! So far my butt feels much better, although I do feel like a patient on 4EF :-)
Skyler and Shaun are going to sleep over tonight, which I am so very excited about. It's going to be nice to have them here all night. We're going to try to do sleepovers Monday and Wednesday nights. Now I just get to wait impatiently for my boys to get here!
Sunday, October 7, 2012
Sunday!
I am starting to feel like I am not a mom, or at least a bad one. I know that I am doing what is best for me and Elijah but I miss Skyler and feel so bad. I feel so bad that my mom always has him, even though I know she loves to have him. But I am so so grateful I have her and that I have someone I trust to watch my little man.
It's just wierd because we never ever have a sitter unless it's 100% necessary ie work. We don't ever go out without Skyler, and honestly I would rather be with him than without. Thats why we don't really do dates and if I am going to do something with a friend ever I plan it so Shaun is home. I just can't wait unitl I can do things with ALL my boys!
Otherwise today has been good, got my packer jersey on! Waiting for a few visitors to come by tonight, so that should make the night go by quick. I will get to talk to my actual doctor in the morning to see what the full plan will be. According to one of her partners, I might be able to go home but under very strict conditions per my doctors notes, someone has to be home with me 24 hours a day...yeah that sounds realistic :-) So we will see.
My mom is bringing me stuffed shells, and homemade chicken soup mmmmm. I am also going to start crocheting tonight, yay!
It's just wierd because we never ever have a sitter unless it's 100% necessary ie work. We don't ever go out without Skyler, and honestly I would rather be with him than without. Thats why we don't really do dates and if I am going to do something with a friend ever I plan it so Shaun is home. I just can't wait unitl I can do things with ALL my boys!
Otherwise today has been good, got my packer jersey on! Waiting for a few visitors to come by tonight, so that should make the night go by quick. I will get to talk to my actual doctor in the morning to see what the full plan will be. According to one of her partners, I might be able to go home but under very strict conditions per my doctors notes, someone has to be home with me 24 hours a day...yeah that sounds realistic :-) So we will see.
My mom is bringing me stuffed shells, and homemade chicken soup mmmmm. I am also going to start crocheting tonight, yay!
Saturday, October 6, 2012
25 weeks!
Today was pretty uneventful, which is a good thing I suppose. Shaun and Skyler only got to visit for a short amount of time but I am just glad I have been able to see both of them everyday. Highlight of my day was that I got to take a wheelchair ride to the cafeteria!!! So we went down for lunch which was nice to get out of the room for a little bit.
Shaun worked tonight and I was very bored, got a little down being here so long alone but I know I have to get used to it. I just wish I was home. Elijah is still doing great, kicking away! I cheered myself up with some Kat Williams on netflix lol. And I decided I am going to start crocheting tomorrow! My grandma taught me a while ago but I don't completley remember, so hopefully with online tutorials and my memory I will get somewhere.
Best news is, I am another week pregnant! I just have to keep remembering what the doctor said, "I'd rather you deliver tomorrow than today, every day counts". Another week pregnant is great and I hope there are many more weekly celebrations before Elijah makes his debut :-)
Shaun worked tonight and I was very bored, got a little down being here so long alone but I know I have to get used to it. I just wish I was home. Elijah is still doing great, kicking away! I cheered myself up with some Kat Williams on netflix lol. And I decided I am going to start crocheting tomorrow! My grandma taught me a while ago but I don't completley remember, so hopefully with online tutorials and my memory I will get somewhere.
Best news is, I am another week pregnant! I just have to keep remembering what the doctor said, "I'd rather you deliver tomorrow than today, every day counts". Another week pregnant is great and I hope there are many more weekly celebrations before Elijah makes his debut :-)
Friday, October 5, 2012
10/5/2012
I slept pretty well last night, suprisingly. This morning Christy came and visisted me which was great! She brought me some fun stuff including a disney princess coloring book :-) Shaun and Skyler came and stayed a while tonight but ended up going home around 8 instead of spending the night. I had a hard time when they left tonight, I just wish I was able to be home with them. I know that this is for the best thought!
I talked to the doctor earlier today and they said they will re-evaluate everything on Monday and see how I am doing. If I am doing well still they may let me go home. However if I go home I have to have someone there with me 24 hours a day because I can only get up to go to the bathroom and take a shower once a day, nothing else. She told me I can lay on the couch...not sit, that's not allowed haha only lay down. So we will see how Monday goes.
I also was an idiot and decided to google some things today. I then realized that the second condition I most likely have besides placenta previa is pretty serious, although really really good that we caught it. If I were to start bleeding bad at home though I would have to call an ambulance to make sure I am able to get to the hospital in enough time!
Lastly, I was getting very excited about starting some online classes for my online rn-bsn degree when I found out some garbage news. They school I planned on attending, Liberty University Online, wants me to take 3 math classes total and will not take my math from my ADN program. I also have to take a few other classes that I have already taken. I am back looking into University of Phoenix...even though some say its not a real school lol. It is in fact a real school and they are not making me take a bunch of BS classes, they are accredited too. They do require some clinical hours which sucks but I would be done much faster through them than I would through Liberty. GRRR desicion desicions!
I talked to the doctor earlier today and they said they will re-evaluate everything on Monday and see how I am doing. If I am doing well still they may let me go home. However if I go home I have to have someone there with me 24 hours a day because I can only get up to go to the bathroom and take a shower once a day, nothing else. She told me I can lay on the couch...not sit, that's not allowed haha only lay down. So we will see how Monday goes.
I also was an idiot and decided to google some things today. I then realized that the second condition I most likely have besides placenta previa is pretty serious, although really really good that we caught it. If I were to start bleeding bad at home though I would have to call an ambulance to make sure I am able to get to the hospital in enough time!
Lastly, I was getting very excited about starting some online classes for my online rn-bsn degree when I found out some garbage news. They school I planned on attending, Liberty University Online, wants me to take 3 math classes total and will not take my math from my ADN program. I also have to take a few other classes that I have already taken. I am back looking into University of Phoenix...even though some say its not a real school lol. It is in fact a real school and they are not making me take a bunch of BS classes, they are accredited too. They do require some clinical hours which sucks but I would be done much faster through them than I would through Liberty. GRRR desicion desicions!
Thursday, October 4, 2012
First blog!
Today I decided to start doing something all the cool people of the world do...Blog! With everything that we are going through I thought it would be good to document things daily, even if I'm the only one reading it!
So October 1st I was admitted to labor and delivery for a bleed (I have placenta previa) and I was having contractions every 2-5 minutes. I was put on some meds and given steroid to help little beans lungs mature a bit faster. I am only 24 w 5d today.
Today was a good day! Last night at midnight I got taken off of the Magnesium drip (used to stop contractions), no contractions since:-) I also got moved from labor and delivery to antepartum, where I will stay the rest of my pregnancy.
Skyler is having a hard time with visiting me and then having to leave which makes things hard for both of us, but we will adjust. But today Mary brought him to visit before she took him to school and he was sad but I was glad I got to see him. Then I got to take a shower and wash my hair!!!! I was wiped from that so I took a nap, at about 3pm the phone rang, it was Shaun telling me that Skyler had fallen off the jungle gym at school and possibly knocked his front tooth loose!!! As if I don't feel bad enough being here, then I couldn't even do anything when that happened. Well turns out it isn't as bad as everyone thought but he still has a dentist appointment in the am. Always keeping me on my toes!
Sam came by and visited me, brought me lots of goodies, thanks Sam! Then Shaun came and sat with me a while, we played rummy and he won as always :-( It's so nice being able to see Shaun and Skyler every day though!
Now while I am in antepartum I will be moniored 3 times a day for contractions and Elijah's heartbeat which makes me happy I get to hear him! Also got my flu shot today...yuck. Everything is going well, learning to adjust and just taking things day by day. Thanking God that we are all healthy and praying to keep Elijah in as long and possible!
So October 1st I was admitted to labor and delivery for a bleed (I have placenta previa) and I was having contractions every 2-5 minutes. I was put on some meds and given steroid to help little beans lungs mature a bit faster. I am only 24 w 5d today.
Today was a good day! Last night at midnight I got taken off of the Magnesium drip (used to stop contractions), no contractions since:-) I also got moved from labor and delivery to antepartum, where I will stay the rest of my pregnancy.
Skyler is having a hard time with visiting me and then having to leave which makes things hard for both of us, but we will adjust. But today Mary brought him to visit before she took him to school and he was sad but I was glad I got to see him. Then I got to take a shower and wash my hair!!!! I was wiped from that so I took a nap, at about 3pm the phone rang, it was Shaun telling me that Skyler had fallen off the jungle gym at school and possibly knocked his front tooth loose!!! As if I don't feel bad enough being here, then I couldn't even do anything when that happened. Well turns out it isn't as bad as everyone thought but he still has a dentist appointment in the am. Always keeping me on my toes!
Sam came by and visited me, brought me lots of goodies, thanks Sam! Then Shaun came and sat with me a while, we played rummy and he won as always :-( It's so nice being able to see Shaun and Skyler every day though!
Now while I am in antepartum I will be moniored 3 times a day for contractions and Elijah's heartbeat which makes me happy I get to hear him! Also got my flu shot today...yuck. Everything is going well, learning to adjust and just taking things day by day. Thanking God that we are all healthy and praying to keep Elijah in as long and possible!
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