This morning I had another bleed, by far the worst yet. They wanted to start
me on mag and a refused. I wasn't having contractions and just yesterday
morning my dr and I spoke about mag and she said we're past the point of it
working for neuro protection. I am so glad I did refuse because I am not really
having anymore contractions than I usually would have.
But they transferred me to L&D, baby is looking great. I just recieved a
dose of rescue steroids (I also got them at 24 weeks) and I can't eat just in
case. The md that is on for my dr spoke with one of the perinatologists and
they decided that any bleed no matter the size I will have a c-section.
I don't even know what to feel right now. I feel relieved to know there is
an end in sight but at the same time so sad that I may only be pregnant for a
few more days. I am praying that this little guy is a fighter and doesn't need
too much nicu time. I feel terrible my body is failing him and he has to come
early and struggle. As upset as I am that this is most likely the last time I
will be pregnant I am so thankful I was given another opportunity to become a
mother again. Thinking back on our IVF cycle I would've given my left arm for
this child so I just have to remember how blessed we really are.
Everyday is less time in the nicu, but it looks like Elijah will be making his debut any day now!
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