December!!!

I can't believe it's December 1st!!!  I can't believe we have made it his far and that tomorrow I will be 33 weeks!  Thats a ton better than the 24 we came in at!

Like I said in my last post, the plan is to deliver with the next bleed so fingers crossed that I don't.  I guess the other plan is to deliver at 34 weeks regardless.  This scares me for many reasons.  Reason 1 is that its only9 days away (they would wait til 34w1d), that is so soon and although this pregnancy has sucked I am going to miss feeling him kick so much.  Reason 2 is that I want to make sure he has the shortest nicu stay possible.  In my head I keep thinking if I make it to 34 weeks why can't we try for 35 weeks and so on, but I get the reasoning...kinda.  The doctors keep saying that it's to prevent any further complications.  The next bleed I could hemmorage and need blood transfusions, baby could lose blood and become anemic which would make him eating for the first few days harder.  So I do get the reasoning but it still seems crazy to me to choose to have a preemie, even though I know thats not what I am doing.

I will need Shaun to be here telling me it's what is best because when it comes down to it I know that I will not think rationally and I will only be thinking about Elijah, not myeslf.

We had a NICU tour the day I got back from labor and delivery this last time, it made me feel so much better.  The nurse was so smart and was able to answer all of our questions.  She made things so much less scary.  Also if he makes it to 34 weeks the chances of him being what they call "feeder and grower" is much better.  What that means is that he will be learning to eat, the part of their brain at that stage isn't fully developed so many preemies have a hard time eating at first.  If that was the only issue he would have a good chance of coming home before Christmas!

Oh and I know this is pretty stupid but if I do make it to 34 weeks I may ask if we can wait until 34w3d...12/12/12 :-) I think it would be pretty cool to have that as a birthday!