Not the news I wanted

I see the other doctors way more than I see her, especially the one doctor I am not too fond of.  But, when I do see her it's always great because she really tells me whats going on and I trust her 100%

After my bleed on Saturday they started me on a drug called nefedipine, it helps to stop contractions which can cause bleeding in a previa patient.  I was really hesitant to take it but it seems to be helping a lot with the contractions!

Today when my doctor stopped in we talked for a while about the "plan" and I must say I am a bit disapointed.  She kept saying how happy she is that I will be 30 weeks this Sunday and how that is a huge milestone (which I know but, she kept saying it as if she didn't expect me to make it this far).  Then I had mentioned how I had joked with Shaun that after Elijah is born that we will still have to stay in the hospital for 4 days before we can go home.  She said that we can stay less but most parents like to stay because the baby has to stay....ummm huh?  She says she is expecting NICU time for him, which breaks my heart.  I don't want to have him early, I don't want to have to leave him here without us. 

I was really hoping for at least 36 weeks but really wanting 38 weeks!  She says that if more bleeding happens that as we get closer to 36 weeks depending on how bad the bleeds are she might want to just deliver me.  I am really really praying that we make it to at least 36 to minimize NICU time and complications, also I've read many stories where the baby is born at 35 weeks and gets to actually go home.  Shaun was born at 34 weeks and that was a loooooong time ago ;-)

We have another u/s next Tuesday morning so we will know more then!  I just ask that everyone keeps praying for me and Elijah and that he stays in as long as he needs to so that we can take our little guy home right away!