Didn't expect this to happen

So I posted about how I was home last night.  It was so incredibly nice to sleep in my own bed with Shaun, I havn't slept that good since I've been in the hospital.  This all might be TMI for some so you can scroll along if you want!  We woke up around 830, Shaun got out of bed right away to let the dogs out.  I got up pretty much right after him because like every morning I had to pee really bad!  When I stood up I thought I peed my pant (people with kids know this isn't crazy during pregnancy lol).  So I just went straight to the bathroom and saw blood.  It was much much more than last time.  I got hyseterical until Shaun came back to the bathroom, I knew I was headed back to the hospital and that I wasn't coming back home until I deliver.

So I called my doctors office, got dressed, and left the house.  We went to labor and delivery where they hooked me up to the monitor.  When I got to the hospital I was still bleeding a bit but not as bad.  Elijah looked good on the monitor but they were concerned about my cramping and contractions I was having.  They started me on the magnesium drip again to stop the contractions which so far is working.  I will stay on the drip until Friday morning and then I will go back to the floor I was on this whole time.  It was nice because one of the nurses I had all the time came to say hi, of course I lost it again when I saw her because just yesterday I was saying bye!  They are saving my old room for me and even brought over my bed I was in because it's much more comfortable than the ones in labor and delivery.  I finally got to eat because they wern't letting me since I got here.

I still am in shock that I am back here so so soon, I feel like I am going to wake up and it is all going to be a bad nightmare.  It was so amazing being back at home and sleeping next to my husband again.  The worst part is that I barley got to see Skyler.  He went to school not too long after I got home yesterday, and then shortly after he got back home Shaun had to take him to my moms because Shaun worked last night.  I feel so so terrible for him, he was so excited that I got to come home.

I have to keep thinking I am lucky that Elijah still looks good and is still inside of me, but it is really emotionally draining to be here.