Yesterday was a pretty bad day. I was still in labor and delivery during the day, crying on and off all day. Shaun wasn't able to be there so I was alone and the nurses are so busy that I had no one to help me. If you've ever been on mag you know how terrible you feel, plus I was hooked up to a million different things and couldn't get out of bed.
Mid breakdown for the millionth time that day, one of my favorite nurses from antepartum came in to say hi. She ended up getting my nurse to call the doctor and getting me tranfered early! I never thougth I'd be so happy to be back in my old room, but I was and I felt so much better.
I got off of the mag drip this morning which was great and I am back to being monitored 3 times a day instead of continous, in a few days I should be 2 times a day. No new bleeding but I have been having some contractions here and there, hopefully they don't turn into anything.
Tonight has been hard. I miss being home, I miss Skyler so so much. He is having a really hard time with this. I know he loves my mom but he just wants his mommy and daddy so bad. I feel like I am missing so much and that he is going to be so different by the time I get out of here. I am also scared that when we come home with Elijah that Skyler is going to be upset that finally when mom comes home she brings this new person that takes up our time. I just pray that everything will work out. I get so mad when I think of everything that I have been through to get pregnant and then everything that I am going through. But I have to keep telling myself that I am blessed to be pregnant, blessed to continue to stay pregnant, and blessed to be having a healthy baby boy. It gets hard at times though because it's almost as if I have to mourn all the plans I had for my pregnancy and labor. Things will get better, this I know.
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