I am starting to feel like I am not a mom, or at least a bad one. I know that I am doing what is best for me and Elijah but I miss Skyler and feel so bad. I feel so bad that my mom always has him, even though I know she loves to have him. But I am so so grateful I have her and that I have someone I trust to watch my little man.
It's just wierd because we never ever have a sitter unless it's 100% necessary ie work. We don't ever go out without Skyler, and honestly I would rather be with him than without. Thats why we don't really do dates and if I am going to do something with a friend ever I plan it so Shaun is home. I just can't wait unitl I can do things with ALL my boys!
Otherwise today has been good, got my packer jersey on! Waiting for a few visitors to come by tonight, so that should make the night go by quick. I will get to talk to my actual doctor in the morning to see what the full plan will be. According to one of her partners, I might be able to go home but under very strict conditions per my doctors notes, someone has to be home with me 24 hours a day...yeah that sounds realistic :-) So we will see.
My mom is bringing me stuffed shells, and homemade chicken soup mmmmm. I am also going to start crocheting tonight, yay!
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